hahaha! so what had happened? i haven't been updating this blog since months ago...
many things had happened.
okay i think i shall write about the latest thing that happened to me. which is.... MY FIRST EVER SPARRING SESSION!!
believe it or not. i never sparred during any of my silat trainings because i was always absent every time a sparring session was being conducted. (why??)
and i was injured during my training camp. thus i couldn't participate in the mini IVP. After the training camp, i was told by the seniors that there would be a friendly silat match between TP and SP. And what shocked me was the fact that everybody was needed to participate in the friendly. I panicked for awhile coz i thought i wasn't ready at all for the friendly as my coach and my seniors never seen me sparring before. i mean i need their comments in order to improve and fight with pesilats from other schools. Nonetheless, i kept it to myself and just attended the trainings a week before the friendly. i tried my best to be ready physically and mentally for the friendly match.

So the night before the friendly, i was very nervous but my seniors told me to relax. Although it was quite hard to do that, i managed to make myself calm. But i couldn't erase the thoughts of what if i cannot fight? what if i bang my head on the floor? what if the opponent is way better than me? what if my coach scold me when he sees me fighting ridiculously? what if i'd become a punching bag to my opponents? what ifs? -.-" so what i did was i prayed to Allah that he'll give me the courage to fight and keep me safe. amin.
and that night i couldn't sleep. i kept thinking of the friendly match. i lied on my bed at 1230 and was finally able to sleep at around 315 am. -.-"
the next morning i recieved a message frm my friend Nazeha. She's from tp silat and she told me that she's fighting with me. It was a pleasant surprise. haha!

and finally the time i had been waiting for came. It was my turn to fight. Never have i seen nazeha's face soo fierce. HAHA! it was my first time seeing the friend i'd known for almost 11 years giving me that fierce look. Since she acted fierce, i decided to give my most fierce look too. hehe. When i was in the ring, i forgot everything around me except my opponent. In my mind, i was thinking of doing the best i could for this first sparring session. This would be the first time my coach, seniors and my friends see me fighting. So i told myself to give my best shot and put all my effort into this fight. Although it was not that good i was quite happy with the fact that i did not let myself become a punching bag to my opponent. :) but of course i was kinda disappointed with my fight coz my attempt to do sapuan was a failure. :( and i didnt do any of the guntingan coz i was still traumatised by the accident happened during the training camp. T.T But that does not mean i'm not gonna try to do guntingan in the future. InsyaAllah for the next sparring session i'll do guntingan and sapuan, if i can. >.<

thats all for now.
thanks for reading
and bye people! :D